I lowkey despise christmas
December 26th, 2024
Christmas is really great for people who's family actually likes them I fear... I get like a decent amount of gifts and like I GOT A LAPTOP THIS YEAR but I didn't get any real gifts. My Mom has just latched onto the fact that I like Hello Kitty because she is cute but thats all every item is. I even sent her links to things I wanted like a good amount of time in advance and said that they are one of the things I really want this year... she just didn't get it for me, instead she got me merch for college when in a style and colour I have stated I don't like. It isn't hard to get gifts for me, just some sorta ugly stuffed animal or something with character or even just like a small craft set. She has no trouble getting things for my sister, who just asks and then a magic fairy gets it for her. God I feel like a toddler when I am jealous of my sister because it isn't her fault that my Mother doesn't like me. Last Christmas [i gave you my heart] she got me I think genuinely 10 sets of 3 pairs of socks. She got me 30 pairs of socks with the same pattern but in just different colours. I told her that if I get another pair of socks this year I am going to cry, guess who has itchy red eyes and 5 new pairs of socks.... THIS GUY!!!!!! It pisses me off so bad because she gets everything right with my sister, she doesn't get 30 pairs of socks one christmas. God this sounds so childish but like, it hurts so bad.
I much prefer to be hanging out with friends on holidays. One New Years me and my shawty bae just sat in a call doing digital activities and it was so fun. I never enjoy myself on holidays like I did that night, it just isn't written in the stars for me and my Mom to get along. Whatever, this sounds like I am throwing a little tantrum because I didn't get what I wanted for Christmas. It isn't hard to understand me or what I like, she just doesn't bother talking to me unless she needs a therapist or wants to be mad at me.
tldr: my mommy doesn't like me and that makes me not like christmas